Well, it’s been almost a full calendar year since I’ve written anything on here – sorry!
People weren’t kidding when they said blogging was hard (it’s even harder when you’re in medical school). Let me explain why I was away for so long.
I got busy
Not a great excuse I know, but when I’m busy, my creative juices tend to turn off. It was the perfect storm of preparing for and taking Step 1 and then immediately throwing myself into my surgical rotation in August that prevented me from feeling energized to write. It was a whirlwind and I can’t believe I’m already finishing my third year of medical school.
Too much pressure
Honestly, I became a little disillusioned with the whole blogging thing. There has always been this sense of inadequacy in what I was doing, a little bit of caring too much about whether or not people were reading what I wrote. I became bored with trying to make every post really count. I realize now that it’s not super important to make each post a big dissertation. I became too nervous about living up to the whole “influencer” thing to say what was on my mind, even if it was stream of consciousness babbling.
I’m a perfectionist
Nothing was ever perfect enough. Not engaging enough, not exciting enough. I wanted to make sure I put out good advice. I didn’t always have the perfect picture to post. I didn’t feel like I was living up to my own expectations. Screw all of that. I just realized how much I missed writing.
Moving forward, I want to put out smaller posts about my day-to-day life, even if they’re not life-changing events or anything too exciting, I just want to go back to doing this for fun 🙂